Life Update

I’ve sat down to write this multiple times, but for some reason it’s hard. I don’t know
if I’m just being lazy or what, but just sitting down and doing it has been difficult!

Anyways, as of the time writing this, I am 31 weeks and 4 days pregnant!

I can’t remember if I’ve written about my fertility before, but my husband and I have
been trying to get pregnant since December 2013...so five years as of December 2019.
We found out that I was expecting October 2019.

I feel like I would look up over the years what the first symptoms of
pregnancy were.

When I really think about it, my first pregnancy symptom was snapping at my sister in law
about something...that was Thursday, October 4th.
I went to see one of my best friends that weekend and didn’t feel like drinking and was
extremely tired.

That next Monday, October 8th, my boobs were

KILLING me. When I say killing me...I mean my nipples felt like they were going to
EXPLODE. This is the first thing that you usually hear people say was
their first pregnancy symptom.

I was telling my other best friend about it. She asked me if I had taken a
pregnancy test. I told her no and that I was sure that I was just PMSing and I was
probably just being whiney. She just told me that I should just go take one.

When I told my husband that I needed to go get a pregnancy test, he rolled his eyes
harder than I did. I just kept telling him, “I know that it’s pointless and probably a
waste of money, but I need to just do it and get it over with.”

I think that I said about 100 times that night that it isn’t going to be positive.

The next morning, I took the pregnancy test...I’ll never forget my reaction.

I was sitting on the toilet staring at the test asking myself why I was taking another
test. I knew that I had taken a million of them and I was just setting myself up for
disappointment...again.

Well, was I wrong!

As I sat there watching that blue line pop up, I had a flood of emotions. My first thought
as that first blue line popped up was, “This test has to be messed up, that indicator line
is never going to pop up.” Well, a few seconds later, that popped up and at that point,
I’m thinking, “No fucking way!”

Actually, I’m pretty sure I said that out loud...several times.

I called my best friend, the one that told me to take the pregnancy test, freaking out. I
was crying and laughing and scared and nervous...these are all emotions that I have
continuously felt over the past 31 weeks.

There are times, a lot of times, that I feel like this is all apart of my
imagination. Every little move and kick feels completely insane. It’s like nothing
I’ve ever felt before.

There are times where I feel soooo out of control...because, to be honest, I am out of
completely out of control. This is literally the most out of control
that I have ever felt in my life.

There have been aches and pains...and I’m sure it will get worse over the next
two months...but the love I feel for the little one inside of me is so abundant.

Every move I feel. Every little flutter. Every wiggle. It all makes me remember why
I’m feeling those pains. It makes me remember this is all going to be worth it.

So what’s my next plan?

We all know how I do with planning for this blog *insert eye roll here*...I suck at it and I don’t
always follow through with those plans, but I would love to write about my experiences in
pregnancy and what I’m going through as a new mom and in life...We’ll see what happens!

Thank you so much for reading this! And let me know if there is anything that you would

like me to cover!

XOXO,

Kat